Eggs, Baskets & Never Ending Questions.

Is it considered wiser to put all your eggs in one basket and be sincere or divide your eggs into 2 or 3 or 4 more baskets so as to have/feel a certain sense of security?
One person can not give you all you hope to get, but maybe in time they will. So do you stick around, be a pain and help them get to where you hope they should be? Bearing in mind that this would be one rocky clash-filled journey or do you combine all the wanted pieces from the different baskets and  make a pretty perfect combination, thereby eliminating the need for change and the unavoidable clash?
Pretty Confusing. Yes?
Sometimes you really want to be something, not just for the other person but for yourself most importantly, but then the universe has a way of steering you to the unthought-of and sometimes undesired but definitely surprising direction. But does the univerese steer us there or do we somehow get ourselves there by ourselves?

MEKA :D

*cleans out cobwebs*

Happy New Year!!!!!! & Merry Christmas Too....& all of that..... 

being M.I.A isn't news anymore...........so anyhoh my Darlyn MEKA finally agreed to write something for me......... 'Read & Be Blessed' LOLssssss

People are out there doing a lot of things to get by and I'm doing nothing but sit on my ass waiting for a big break. I thought it'd be easy to deduce from the fact Rome wasn't built in a day that life is a gradual process where every thing starts little and grows with dedication, not just hardwork at first. When it comes to success, suddenly everyone is myopic; we don't see the big picture on the seemingly small canvass. It doesn't feel like a multinational now doesn't mean it won't grow to be one. 

Its hard, considering the nothingness we're engulfed in these days but I dare you to dream big. Prepare possible responses to questions about your grounds breaking achievement(s) in the mirror, and one day that practice would make perfect the success you're becoming. Make your dreams a reality through constant positive thoughts, believe in it so much its imprinted in your subconscious; then leave the rest the faith which perfects all things as long as you believe. 

We have all put off one bright idea or the other at some point because at the time it made little or no sense to us, let alone the world at large. Right there could have been the birth of an ingenious streak of ideas, the murder of a perfectly carved out niche that could have separated us from the lot. That sieve that separates the wheat from the chaff, same one that separates the boys from men. If you are thinking different from the next man you are on the right track, dare to think outside this box they say is round.  

More often than not, failure is a vital lesson. Its a first hand experience on how to do things differently. In every obstacle, there is a maneuver tactic to be learnt & we all know practice makes perfect.

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Sincerely writing after many relationships and flings (and drop that fackin judgemental look......many does'nt mean that many), there is nothing like complete total happiness, I mean you find someone who according to books is perfect for you, or rather you find the perfect relationship full of love and adoration which is what youve always dreamt of, and all of a sudden love isnt enough!! and then its either he's the problem, or the relationship is a problem and in most cases you're the problem!!! I know how many times I have told myself that if I find a guy like 'THIS' i'll settle down *THIS meaning whatever criteria I have in my state of loneliness and love starvation given the next guy I expect me to fall for* and suddenly the guy comes and before I know it I am laying down the criteria for the next one when I am still with the Mr. Present (soon to be Mr. ImSorryThisIsntWorkingOutAsPlanned).......*Big Sigh*. I mean a few months back I could beat my chest and say I had it all; (a comfortable boyfriend, one who loved me wholly @ that, someone who had finally taken me for who I am e.t.c) but then right now looking back, its either I messed it up by holding onto nothing, or I went into it for the wrong reasons probably because at that point, it seemed like a way out of whatever I needed to get out of then......or maybe because it was'nt meant to be! Free all the silly, self comforting and excusing reasons. I think our relationship needs adjust as we breathe, and the key to ending the constant in and out movement is finding someone who moves proportionally to these changes, that way with every changing change, they still have our hearts and most importantly our eyes. This is definitely the most love starved period of my life, Not only don't I have love, I do not know where to get from and heck I have no prospects.......its like I have hit menopause and am constantly stuck wishing for the Red Nation or for babies.....and menopause as an example makes my love life seem impossible, its not but heck that's how it feels or seems. Its hard finding someone, when during the past few months, all I've done is build my ideal man with the bricks I have formed using the traits I have observed from other peoples ideal men, in their on-going relationships I should add, yeah so my bar has been set preeetttty high and pretty unattainable too. But as much as I like to act like everything is well and good in this kingdom, these are truly trying times, my head is tired of the InMyMind Relationships I listen to songs and form, I'm tired that at the end of each day I have no one to tell how my day went, or the fact that I have no one to whine to, or talk endlessly to, or more painfully the fact that I have no one who wants to sincerely know me as much as I want to know them even more. For wherever we are in life at each point, we find ourselves in these places not by magic, but probably because we wove a complicated web we were too non-chalant to pay attention to that has landed us here, in simple english wherever we are,our past action put us there. And when I take this into consideration, my constant dissatisfaction and search for something better might be why I have nothing to search for today. The morale of this story is nothing, and I sincerely don't know what to say to give the writers close.....this is one of those I'm done writing, you can now close this web page, GOODBYE.

MUSIC & me

I had started this post with full intent on writting a music nd me Piece, but thanks to @StrictKiD I am a bit confused, as usual I do not have a heading or pattern to which I wanna flow but I will flow: Musically.

Music has so far been a very important part of not just me but everything I embody....I won't lie to myself or anyone and say the usual "I grew up in a  music filled house" but I for sure can say I taught myself music, not only has my taste in music diversified me, it has also become not just a determining but a major and forcefully existing factor in most if not all of my relationships. 

Well apart from my boobies music is 1 thing that has matured and sadly faster than my boobies...(*thinking*If only they could exchange their growth rate*-well my scanty organ is thought for anoda day). I have with all of my partners or rather boyfriends explored these different genres of music either as a teacher, a learner or most times symbiotically(*If eng. Permits*....slap your biology teacher if you even for a second got confused and no over sabi should argue the spelling too).

As a teenager all Starry_Eyed and shit I'm proud to say I got to experience the Love,Awesomeness,Sexiness and to be sincere Konjiness of Chris Brown, he at that time seemed to be with all his baby depictions of love e.g ice cream, talking endlessly over the phone,texting e.t.c. talking about or rather shaping my First Relationship,(I no I'm a Youngie screw you Marvin Gaye Peeps mehn) and thankfully GDG was there every step...(Bless your soul Bby) I/We religiously did 'Chris Brown' and for me 'did' in every sense, till this pink Lipped chocolate hottie with the bicycle seat cap came along...and 'In His Own Words' sexually lit my relationship, this time not just for me but for GDG too, thankfully he was above 18 so sexuality as it is till today wasn't an issue to him Kudos to tracks like 'Mirror' I begun to imagine my Sex but in the BED, once again more attentively We listened to him, its no surprise though  that he became the Leading Artiste of my 'Interphase I' and years later songs like Together, Do You, Make it work, Because of You, Sexy Love e.t.c even though from different albums and years still applied/apply to this relationship.

I never liked John Legend but as my taste in men changed so did my love for him escalate that's no mystery a look at him explains everything!!! My other relationship might have been symbiotic but in this I was a learner, the joys of the 'Legend' were gradually made known to me, I mean here was a total Lover-Boy who did'nt work up a tiny nerve while at it, plus he was older and yes a lot more gentlemanly, and conjuring images.........mmm my pleasure!!!! Though this romance and also bromance was short lived, moving from Ne*yo to John Legend was to me once more my growth, and years later the 'Year of the Gentleman', repackaged and more stylish still did'nt make an appearance. 2 Facts: Not just was I over Ne*yo, I was over the boy too.

I smile at the thought of this trimester, OOC brought me Variety which they say and I attest to being the spice of life, the music came as easy and freely as the Love, we made beautiful music as well as beautiful ............(Lemmi hear the Pervs in the house Say Uh-Huh Uh-Huh), looking bacK we would have been the perfect symbiotic example in a biology text book....I'm making it sound too perfect right?? Well maybe in my little head it was, this music had no theme, We did rap, blues, jazz, slows strangely little RnB as compared to the other relationships where RnB Rocked and Ruled!! And GOD NO! no Rock I'd kill any boy who comes within 25ft of me with that!!( Yeah Bite Me), I listened to Maxwell, Daniel Merriwether, found the love in M.I and picked few progressive themes from *drumrolll*** Ne*yo(He's just Die Hard), I fell for almost all forms of music, I was exposed and it felt Orgasmic!!!! The music stayed the boy well.........that's why its Music & Me

If 'The Legend' was shortlived then Banky-W and Fantasia were aborted as feotuses. Although looking at the theme musicians, the span and pattern of the relationship would'nt come as  surprise (I no talk anything again WO...)For me, out of all Bankys songs I went for strongthing it even became a ticket to ask out factor; proud to say that here I was a teacher to this student so conceited, surely nothing could pass through an ego so THICK!.....I no shock when na serious STRONGTHING dem do me in the end...Fantasia sadly nothing to say I just know you were there and sadly still ARE.

From here its a winding story which I can't even explain, or maybe which isn't worth discussing, alone and with JOT I have discovered the heady adrenaline of Techno, the Growth and Tribulations of Breezy, seen things WRETCHrospectively (By the way y'all should totally check out Wreth32 he ROXXX), to mention but a few. 

It has been a Back & Forth journey but 1 thing is for sure even though my life has gone seemingly South, not just with my relationships but as a whole; Music is 1 thing that has followed me every step, not just theming but accompanying me, it has found A way to speak to me in every situation and sometimes melt my heart repeatedly at every listen, it has no hands and eyes but I feel it guiding me everytime I surrender to the 'Shuffle' spirit, always finding something to say just when I need to hear, always, always, always!!!

This is 1 thing that isn't in a million years going any where!!!!

Thanks to @StictKiD you inspired this post and the preceeding sequence of tweets, I miss your friendship, hope we can find a way to 'Make it Work'.

And to you all I hope you find your Music.

                        ***Peace & Love***

R.I.P

Alot has to me happened in a very short time, i remember this blog everyday but sumhow i have lost the zeal to write any longer, i have surprisingly lost every form of inspiration there is and nothing has that drive it used to possess anymore. I have a zillion excuses and reasons but i think the first was my most important friends going totally hardcore with their criticisms as regarding my last and if I may remind you guys 1st ever attempt, i kept arguing with them when they said it was too serious and not funny at all in my blogs defense i said it was just an opening and i didnt think it necessary to be funny since i was just introducing it, i brushed them off and smiled when all i wanted to do was bitch slap em and tell em fuck u, go and die!!!Im sorry i write too mature for u guys and being funny isnt all there is to blogging all of em said no1 would read if it wasn't funny and in all seriousness with no ounce of blog defense present screw all y'all looking for something funny to read, if you desire so much to laff A.Ys charging 5K on Saturday go buy yourself a ticket and laugh your balls off but dont make it a criteria for blogs to be funny *breathing out :deep breath*i promised not to loose my temper* so on a brighter note @lilmissbeebee and @2blaq screw u guys for your criticism I hope to read your very sucky and shitty blogs soon and  I hope dey make me laugh!!!
Secondly I lost a close friend, sister, classmate, Her name was Oyebukola Khadijat Ajibosho Buki,Duduski,Shortgeh e.t.c  if you by any chance managed to go through my last blog-post @bukkky was my critic and it was as a result of her constant belief that i started blogging!!and loosing her not only shocked me but erased whatsoever blog reason i ever came up with, I no, I no, I should have been selfless enough as to write one in her memory but how do you begin to type when the reason for your typing is no more, I should have been writing on how I almost lost her and didn't not on how i I almost lost  her and eventually did. I hear one busybody thinking I should have written about her life but shut the fuck up loose a close friend and write something only then and after that should you tell me shit!!!Truth is a big part of my FUT and life experience had her in it and in some way she left with it, I cat say her memories are a blur because she was too good to forget but its just painful remembering those times when she wouldn't be there to create more, or when tears follow....I may have lost a friend but @iamyem3y lost his only sister, only sibling, 2nd sibling so I still cannot bring myself to imagine what he went through and still goes through, i just hope God grants him and the Ajibosho family comfort and Joy, Joy that would superceed all the hurt they have ever had to live with. And we her friends may we carry her forever.R.I.P My darlyn Friend.
And this is the point where i dont know waht to say, i would not proofread for fear of discarding ,so pardon my #Gbagauns nd typos and uncapitalised i's i just cant go back.......
Peace and Love!!!!

THE OPENING

I have not since i opened this blogg atually blogged, i opened this thinkng in my tiny mind that few people att(at the time) were bloggers plus i had this dream that id be like nobs360 since we were few bt thanks to twitter i realised that not only had blogging existed a longtime ago, there were a million bloggers most of which were useless *not that im any good* and no im not being modest i really am not, this basically had without my knowledge(even though i like feeling up to date) become the new social network and you were basically floating if you didnt keep an online diary;another reason why i did this (hehe the feeling among virus dey catch everybody so shut up!!!!)So after the plenty plenty advice from my friends esp. @2blaq and @meez_jonez here i am- writting my first post.......i do not promise to be interesting cus basically I live a very boring life between struggling to up my crashig G.P, acting as the boy of the house( by that i mean doing all the erands and stuff the first son would usually do;not that i do not have an elder brother but for many reasons i have taken up his role), being a mother to my old dad-very i must add and siblings,plus the fact that I have very boring friends and many more reasons it would be a very serious task to promise you the opposite........So tanks for readng this one and i hope you read my not so interesting future posts...............

Before I make this public id give it to my critic @bukkkyy to read and if U see more than 2 followers or more posts then obviously she approved **fingers crossed**
PEACE & LOVE.